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North Carolina.
I'm going like frickin insane here. I feel better today, I ate, a lot, I'm not going to even bother to count the calories. I honestly don't want to because I'm terrified of how much I actually consumed. I'm so scaredddddddd. I don't want to gain weight. I've GOT to be more productive here in North Carolina. We've got the boys here now, so they'll be eating all of our food && they'll be nothing left for me. GOOD. I don't want to eat anymore, I can feel it in my throat right now, waiting to be thrown up. I don't know if I will puke or not... maybe. I guess I should count up my cals. So I can make myself feel horrible... so I don't eat everything in the house. goddamn.
I got to drive the jetskii today though, it was nice. I love driving it all alone. I wanna go out again tomorrow. Ahhh. I feel happy. I guess I just get depressed when I'm tired and hungry, but I think I can get high off of emptiness. I'm planning on it.
I got to drive the jetskii today though, it was nice. I love driving it all alone. I wanna go out again tomorrow. Ahhh. I feel happy. I guess I just get depressed when I'm tired and hungry, but I think I can get high off of emptiness. I'm planning on it.
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